Yep it went as scheduled. I got there at 10:00am and was wheeled into surgery at 1:00pm. Yeah it took that freakin’ long!!!!

Whatev.

I was knocked out at first and then my azz woke up during surgery and of course I felt the little sticks and pins and whatever else he was doing.

Bastard yelled at me to be still. Fuck you doc!!! That shit hurt!!!!!! Zero pain tolerance here. I might have told him fuck you too!! Who knows, I was loopy!!! If you didn’t want my azz to wake up and feel nothing then you shoulda kept my azz asleep until yall azzes was finished.

I have a headache and a neckache.

The port is in my clavicle.

THIS SHIT HURTS!!!!!!!!!

I’m bout to take a pain pill and calling it a night.

Oncology scheduled chemo for tomorrow.

YIKES!!!!!!!!!

Gotta have blood work done beforehand, so chemo starts on Friday.

Dollface is in the African American History Program on Friday morning.

My chemo is scheduled for Friday morning.

What do you think I’m gonna do????

Gonna ask for an hour reprieve on that poisonous lifesaving shit.

Just an hour.

My throat also hurts from the anesthesia. They told me it would. They didn’t lie.

Night all.

Ooh today just hasn’t been my day. I have been feeling kinda yucky blah like.

I went out for some air earlier and eventhough the sun was shining I still felt like crap.

Mondays mean free coffee at Mickey D’s.

Copped me a cup o’ joe.

That stuff is crap.

I would never pay for that mess.

Maybe it’s the flavor, they only give out Hazelnut for free.

Whatev.

I’ve been reading up more on the side effects of chemo and now I’m getting anxious. Worried about feeling sick and shit. So not what I want to go through.

I’m feeling and looking healthy on the outside, why can’t my insides cooperate?

Fuck you cancer!!!!!!!!

I’m watching 24 right now.

I so heart Jack Bauer!!!

My tooth has been hurting for the last couple of days, what is up with that?

Oh no they are setting this chick up for disaster. *24*

Sen. Rol.and Burr.is oh hell to the naw!!!

Why are Illinois politicians so damn dumb?

Dollface spent the weekend with me and lil chica is too awesome for words!!! I swear this child has been here before, I swear!!!!

I cooked a bunch of food over the weekend to have for this week and now I don’t want any of it!!!!!!!! Nothing appeals to me right now!

Nothing but damn doritos. *sigh*

While I was out today I had to force myself to NOT stop and pick up another bag. *sigh*

Aw shitttttttttttt!!!!!!!!! My boyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!

Aaron on 24, me loves this dude forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He’s been on since the very first 24.

I mean I really, really love Aaron!!!!!!!!

Tax time makes my mom quite the frantic little old lady.

She betta go take a chill pill and sit the hell down already.

Today, once again, I want a puppy.

Tomorrow, once again, I won’t LOL!!!

I should be hearing from same day surgery AGAIN tomorrow.

Hopefully everything will go according to plan this time.

No everything WILL go according to plan this time.

More crazy dreams last night.

I ain’t liking it one bit.

My subconscious mind is playing tricks on me.

Uh oh they are forcasting a winter storm for tomorrow.

Happy Monday!

So I go in for the portacath today. How about it’s not scheduled until 4:45 this afternoon. UGH!!!! I have to fast of course, that really is no problem but I can’t drink anything after 8:00 in the morning and it’s now 12:50am. Basically that says to me go to bed and when you wake up, you can’t have a damn thing to drink until after your surgery.

Now that sucks. Watch I’ll be thirstier than a mugg!!!

Dollface came over today and she tried on her jeans and they were adorable on her. I did tell yall I copped 2 pairs of Disn.ey.famous.heffa.Mon.tana.chick jeans for the fabulous price of $5.99 didn’t I?

Well anyways she was here today and she tried on her jeans and she really, really loved the silver pair. She’s a total rock star baby!!!

Ok I think I’m gonna go troll over on my newest addiction.

Eeeeeeeeeebaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!

talk later with details from getting the portacath implanted.

~~~~~UPDATE~~~~~~

I get a call this morning that says my surgeon is ahead of schedule and for me to come in earlier.

YEA!!!!!

Then a half an hour later…

I get a call that says the surgeon has had an in house emergency and that would have pushed my procedure waaaaaayyyyy back. So he decided to cancel it altogether.

Booooooooooooooooo!!!!

Surgery is now scheduled for next Wednesday.

At first I was like, WTF!!!!!!!!! Now I’m like everything happens for a reason cause I was having some mad crazy dreams last night. Can’t remember all of it but it was kinda weird.

So today I’m trying to finagle my way to Texas for a few days of R&R.

Keep your fingers crossed for me please.

The portacath tentatively will be inserted this Thursday. I don’t know why hospitals wait until the day before your surgery to call you with all the details. Don’t they know people need to know more than a day in advance what time to show up at the hospital and what time they will be actually performing surgery??? I don’t get it.

I spoke with my play mom Sunday about the portacath. She had three implanted, not at the same time though.
One became infected so they placed another one. Then a year or so later her cancer came back and they inserted another cath in her arm. She said it was relatively painless and that you don’t even feel it in you.

That’s good cause you know I was like oh man how is this thing going to feel inside my body????

24 was awesome again tonight/last night. I have noticed it’s incredibly gory this year. They so are not playing with the killing of folk. I just turn my head or close my eyes cause I don’t do gory at all!!! That is kinda funny considering 24 is all about torture and stuff.

I had another awesome weekend. Had some friends over and we played keno and laughed, talked, ate and drank. Sunday was church and it was good too.

Gotta try and mail off a package to a friend in Sweden. It will be on it’s way soon Gina.

Watched the Gra.mmys last night and what a waste of time. It was sooooooo boring to me.

I should have watched Bros and Sisters and them Desperate Heffas but noooooooo I thought I was going to miss something good.

HUMPH!!! NOT!!!!!

It’s going to be in the 60’s here tomorrow/today. I sure hope the sun shines.

That will make me happy!

No portacath this week. My GB surgeon didn’t have any available slots open for me this week. I didn’t think he could squeeze me in at such a late date. They are trying to confirm for next Thursday to implant the cath. My Oncologist is going to flip. She has been saying for weeks that treatment needs to get started immediately so to postpone it for another week is going to send her up the wall. Plus like I said, I gots the sniffles right now and you sooooo can not do chemo with a cold or sniffles.

So I have another week to play around without more testing and stuff. I don’t know if that’s a good thing or bad thing but let’s just say a sista is trying to get as much non sick time in as possible, ya know????

I missed the burning bowl ceremony this year. I really wanted to attend because I surely have some stuff I want to burn the hell out of my life!!!! FOREVER!!!!!!!!

I think I’m going to plan a little get together for this weekend. Gonna see how everyone’s schedule is looking. Have some friends over for games, burning bowl ceremony and of course food and dranky dranks!!!

PLUS the weather is supposed to be spectacular this weekend. We are talking a high of 48 degrees. Hell folks gonna be skinny dippin’ in Lake Michigan. Polar Bear club and whatnot LOL!!!!!!!

Oh yeah I won a contest too!!! PaulaSoul contacted me to let me know that I won a $50.00 Visa gift card!!!!!

Heyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!! I am too excited for words about this!!!!!!!!!!

*Bunny doing the cabbage patch, running man and the snake*

Check her out, she’s good peoples man!!!!!!! She’s in my blogroll folks!!!!

Everything is moving pretty fast now and I’m glad. I went to see the oncologists and they are both on the same page with treatment. I had to go to the University of Chi to see if they had any clinical trials for my particular type of cancer. They didn’t so I’m sticking with the first Oncologist. They did tell me if a clinical trial comes up later I will be considered since this cancer is sooooooo rare. I hate that word right now, rare. Everything is so rare with me.

KMA on the rare tip.

That ain’t a good thing that rare bs!!!!!!

Anyways she wants me to get a portacath implanted THIS WEEK!!!!!!!! YIKES!!!!! It’s already Wednesday I don’t think that’s gonna happen. She wanted it put in this week so I can start chemo next week.

Got a bunch of literature regarding side effects and what to expect. The biggest one for me is nausea and the possible loss of appetite. I am not trying to look like Scary Spice again. My friends told me I was looking rather scary a few weeks ago when I had that awful infection and I didn’t have an appetite and stopped eating for about two weeks.

The second biggest that would be hair loss. I kinda dig my hair in all it’s natural glory. It might not fall out but then again who knows. It’s just a small price to pay though.

Save a life and lose my hair. Yeah I’ll take losing my hair and saving my life each and every time. This stuff will grow back, that should be the least of my problems.

My troubled soul called tonight after being MIA for over two months. I chewed his ass out and told him exactly what I thought. Hell he knows what the deal is over here and he still didn’t call to check in. But that’s what happens when he doesn’t take his meds. He just decides not to call or nothing. I seriously was thinking something awful had happened to him. We had no way to get in touch with him and it was really getting to me. I thank God that he is alive, not well but alive. He takes care of fools and I’m soooo happy because that fool needs help in the worst way. That boy keeps me on my knees praying for him all the time.

I picked up Dollface from school today, she was elated!!!!!! Only for the day though which makes me sad. I miss getting her from school daily. She’s growing by leaps and bounds man. That girl is going to be so tall just like her daddy.

When I woke up this morning, why did I have the sniffles??? You can’t start chemo with a cold. So I upped the Vitamin C today and at 12:37am I’m feeling a little bit better.

It’s cold again in Chicago, booooooo!!

The groundhog makes me sick!!!

Believer I’m a hater for your warm weather, trust LOL!!!

Good news, I lost six pounds in a week.

Bad news, I wasn’t trying.

Last weekend I took Dollface to see Dis.ney on I.ce. I froze my butt off in that joint and I was dressed for it too. I mean I was layered up and still had to sit there for two hours with my coat on. Humph maybe that’s why I have the dang sniffles!!!!!!! She enjoyed it although I couldn’t tell at first. She was sitting there like in a daze.

2 tickets=$34.00
cost to park= $15.00
Kids meal = $5.75
Crazy spinning tinkerbell toy = $20.00
Nachos for me = $5.75
Tinkerbell pennant = $6.00

Look on her face after the show was over and the love that she gave me… PRICELESS!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’d do anything for that baby. She rocked her report card so of course I had to overindulge my girl. That math grade is still not the best but she did bring it up one grade so I’m thankful.

Sunday went to church with mom and her little church is trying to make a comeback. Get it St. K. After church we went out for breakfast. Yum, yummy.

Did a little bit of shopping and later went to a Superbowl/Anniversary party. My cheeks hurt so bad I laughed so dang much. That was good for my soul man.

It was a really good weekend!!!!!!!