Everything is moving pretty fast now and I’m glad. I went to see the oncologists and they are both on the same page with treatment. I had to go to the University of Chi to see if they had any clinical trials for my particular type of cancer. They didn’t so I’m sticking with the first Oncologist. They did tell me if a clinical trial comes up later I will be considered since this cancer is sooooooo rare. I hate that word right now, rare. Everything is so rare with me.

KMA on the rare tip.

That ain’t a good thing that rare bs!!!!!!

Anyways she wants me to get a portacath implanted THIS WEEK!!!!!!!! YIKES!!!!! It’s already Wednesday I don’t think that’s gonna happen. She wanted it put in this week so I can start chemo next week.

Got a bunch of literature regarding side effects and what to expect. The biggest one for me is nausea and the possible loss of appetite. I am not trying to look like Scary Spice again. My friends told me I was looking rather scary a few weeks ago when I had that awful infection and I didn’t have an appetite and stopped eating for about two weeks.

The second biggest that would be hair loss. I kinda dig my hair in all it’s natural glory. It might not fall out but then again who knows. It’s just a small price to pay though.

Save a life and lose my hair. Yeah I’ll take losing my hair and saving my life each and every time. This stuff will grow back, that should be the least of my problems.

My troubled soul called tonight after being MIA for over two months. I chewed his ass out and told him exactly what I thought. Hell he knows what the deal is over here and he still didn’t call to check in. But that’s what happens when he doesn’t take his meds. He just decides not to call or nothing. I seriously was thinking something awful had happened to him. We had no way to get in touch with him and it was really getting to me. I thank God that he is alive, not well but alive. He takes care of fools and I’m soooo happy because that fool needs help in the worst way. That boy keeps me on my knees praying for him all the time.

I picked up Dollface from school today, she was elated!!!!!! Only for the day though which makes me sad. I miss getting her from school daily. She’s growing by leaps and bounds man. That girl is going to be so tall just like her daddy.

When I woke up this morning, why did I have the sniffles??? You can’t start chemo with a cold. So I upped the Vitamin C today and at 12:37am I’m feeling a little bit better.

It’s cold again in Chicago, booooooo!!

The groundhog makes me sick!!!

Believer I’m a hater for your warm weather, trust LOL!!!

Good news, I lost six pounds in a week.

Bad news, I wasn’t trying.

Last weekend I took Dollface to see Dis.ney on I.ce. I froze my butt off in that joint and I was dressed for it too. I mean I was layered up and still had to sit there for two hours with my coat on. Humph maybe that’s why I have the dang sniffles!!!!!!! She enjoyed it although I couldn’t tell at first. She was sitting there like in a daze.

2 tickets=$34.00
cost to park= $15.00
Kids meal = $5.75
Crazy spinning tinkerbell toy = $20.00
Nachos for me = $5.75
Tinkerbell pennant = $6.00

Look on her face after the show was over and the love that she gave me… PRICELESS!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’d do anything for that baby. She rocked her report card so of course I had to overindulge my girl. That math grade is still not the best but she did bring it up one grade so I’m thankful.

Sunday went to church with mom and her little church is trying to make a comeback. Get it St. K. After church we went out for breakfast. Yum, yummy.

Did a little bit of shopping and later went to a Superbowl/Anniversary party. My cheeks hurt so bad I laughed so dang much. That was good for my soul man.

It was a really good weekend!!!!!!!